I was unconscious for several days. In that long, dreamlike haze, scenes from years ago began to rise again in my mind—vivid, unshakable. A dark, damp rental flat. Shawn lying curled up on the bed, shivering in pain after taking the cheapest painkillers we could find. His heart was acting up again. I crouched beside him, tears streaming down my face. He gripped my hand weakly and whispered, "Leoly